March 19, 2009

Betrayed

It's been a year since it happened , i was accused of having an affair with another man, " I was seen watching a movie together with a man and another couple" i was devastated because my husband believes it, I used to have 4 hours vacant which i did not declare because , i want that time for myself, to sleep more and to review before my second subject will come, that undeclared vacant was used against me, everything was taken from me from then on, my husband took the atm card and give to my sister in law, she handles our finances and i have nothing but 100 pesos ever day for my allowance,i tried to endure everything, now that my sister in law and her family are living together with us. me and my four kids, my husband is in charge on our food , bills etc. and my sister in law handles it because my husband in in U.S.,

I found out just recently, that my sister in law is checking on my cellphone in my oblivion, searching for i don't know what, and asking for her niece which is my classmate if whoever it is "the name" that texted me, even quotes,

because i have no money and i have a pending pawn even before my husband and i fight, i have to make money for keeping the ring from expiring to its due, so i asked my sister in law to give my allowance for this week even we don't have anymore duty this monday to Wednesday amounting 300 pesos, she agreed but asked me to talk to her niece-classmate of mine that if ever my husband will ask till when are duty will end, she would say till this week, she agreed.

last monday my sister in law told me that her cousin ( her niece-classmate of mine's mother) doesnt want to get involve (such a big deal right?)

and earlier today her niece-classmate of mine told me that my sister in law called them that if ever my husband call them, they should tell the truth that we dont have duty anymore, i wonder why, because in the first place it was her idea to tell them,..

also earlier today jes (her niece -classmate of mine)told me that the one who saw me watching movies with another man is a relative of my sister in law's friend, yes i admit they saw me but i was in sm food court together with my all girls classmate.
I felt so devastated, betrayed and hurt, my heart is crying for indescribable pain, i dont know what i did wrong to them to treat me this way, how could they be so scheming?

last february i lost my wallet inside my bag inside our room,(our room doesnt have a lock) inside that was 5000 for my tuition fee, i don't know what to say but i remained positive,and not accusing anyone, but this is what i've got.

I want to cry and shout, i can tell no one, i can't confront them , i want to have proof of them talking against me, i'm afraid jess would take her word when time comes..

I really wanted to cry, my husband .. who supposed to be the one i can lean on, believes them more than me, who did nothing but love him, i never loved anyone aside of him since i met him, i endure all the pain, i fought for him,and even forgive him every time he had wronged me, and that happened many times.

Why does my sister in law doing this to me, why my husband always believe in her when shes so scheming and liar.

i feel so bad, i'm so alone in this battle, i dont know how long i can endure this...