Once again

I reread all my post once again, and i realize that nothings change, well there's alot of changes, in fact it became worst, I felt like i've been living wastefully, in misery, so close like living in hell. Years has passed since my last post, now im here again, I just came from crying(again) for the nth time I cried, why?

My husband accused me from having an affair with my classmate, and the reason was, someone "saw me in a movie theater with a guy" according to that somene which my husband doesnt want to reveal the identity which makes me wonder if theres really that "someone" that someone saw me and three other person, and it says that we went to a movie by two's, and that is ridiculous, and never that thing ever happened. I never went to anybody to watch a movie! his suspiscion became "stronger" when he found out that i have a 4 hours vacant period every wednesday, i didnt tell anyone about that because i want that time for myself,

for the preparation of the next subject which requires a lot of reading, I never bother to tell him because i never thought it could take against me, because god knows i didnt do anything, Once i told him my schedule and he bluntly said " what would i do with your schedule? why are you telling me?, FYI he's in abroad for 5 years now, he had a constant fling and when i bother to comfront him in whatever way, he just shut me off and will told me to never mind on his bussiness, He never cares for me at all, he never made me feel like i'm his wife, in family decision, whatever decisions, he never considerate my suggestion, opinion and most of all my feelings. So to continue the story,

he act like a victim saying that i'm fooling around while he was working his ass there where ever he is right now. He took the laptop and recover all the files to his suspicion, there was the picture of my classmateS, take note of the S , i was so excited that finally i got my dream cellphone, so i took pictures of my classmate to have that on my phone so whenever they text or call me, the picture will appear,so he took that against me, mind you the picture he saw were solo pictures of my classmate, he cud accused me and nail me to the cross if he saw a pic of me with any other guy, even not intimate picture, just a pic of me with other guy, i will wholeheartedly accept any punishment.

He took that against me, and stitch all of that to come in a conclusion, when i , during that time when i saw an evidence of him having an affair, i saw a video tape of him having sex!!! imagine the evidence compare of what he was claiming his proof. So what he did, he took all the cards, and never give me money anymore, his sister is the one who's holding the money for us,I really felt bad, not because of the money, but for the fact that i have to be treated that way because of something i did not do, Of all the things he did to me, of all the heartaches, abuses , at the end he made me look like I;m the bad person, and its depressing, theres no justice, none at all..