Looking back

Maulan sa labas, malamig masarap mag nilay nilay, I remember having this conversation Me: masama pakiramdam ko, mamaya na lang wala mga bata walang papakainin si 👿 dito 👿minion: bakit anong sakit mo? Me: Allergic sa plastic (pertaining to her)😂😂 Naranasan ko na lahat ng extreme emotions, sa sobrang galit ko nuon parang pag nakaharap ko mapapatay ko. I thank God di pa umabot sa ganuon. I was too naive and gullible back then. Sinamantala nila yun para paikutin ang buhay ko sa palad nila. I loved them hanggang sa mga apo, but they betrayed me and did the unthinkable. Pinanakot nila sa akin ang mga anak ko, i was jobless without a single cent in my pocket, i have nowhere to go. Looking back, malayo layo na din kung ano ako sa dati. I removed them all in my life, minsan may mga communication pero madalang na lang, most importantly, di na nila hawak ang buhay ko. I am still struggling, still in a constant battle, Many times that i wanted to give up and almost gave up, but i know i had to be strong.. when being strong was the only option. So please God, stop na ha🙏🙏🙏 quota na 🤗🤗🤗

Till Then

I know no matter how many times you tell me how much you love me, that wouldn’t enough for you to choose me. A part of me was hurt knowing it all along, but part of me was proud, proud for loving someone who will choose to the right thing no matter what. That is why I am hurting, that is why I am in pain, and that is why I am sad. Because I know if you choose to leave and hurt me, I will still understand. I can’t ease the pain by getting angry with you, but I can only blame myself, for allowing this love to grow selfishly. I love you, please forgive me. For now let me hold you.. let me make myself believe in “us” till I am strong enough to let you go.